I have been unlocked for a little over a week so far (9 days, currently). The last time I was free for this long was some time way back in July 2015! It really does almost feel strange NOT wearing a cage, as I’ve been so used to that constricted feeling for such a long time.
Over the past week when I wake up in the middle of the night next to my sleeping Angel, I notice that I’m still horny as hell, but unlike when I’m locked I actually have something to “show” for it! 🙂 I have given Angel control of when I can have an orgasm, so that’s not going to change just because I’m not locked at the moment. But, being how I suddenly AM able to at least touch myself down there, I have not been able to resist the temptation to stroke “just a little bit…” Several times, I have managed to bring myself right to the brink of an orgasm, then stop. A few minutes later (if I haven’t fallen back asleep by then!) I might do the same thing again..
Edging myself like that ends up feeling a lot like when I AM locked, especially when Angel is in full-on “tease” mode. During those moments Angel will have orgasm after orgasm for herself, and I always FEEL like I’m right on the edge of having one myself–but short of holding the magic wand right against my cage for a while there’s not really much chance of that actually happening. Here, I can get myself right to that point fairly easily but then have to kind of force myself to back off and keep from going all the way with it.. So far there haven’t been any “accidents!”
I did tell Angel about this the other day when we were laying in bed putting off the inevitable chores that needed to be done once we got up. Honestly I couldn’t really tell from her reaction what she thought of it. She asked if I did that while she was laying right next to me, which yes… I had already done it at least once that very morning! I assured her that even when I’m not locked, she DOES still have full say of when I will have an orgasm. She wondered how she would “know” that, and the only answer was that while I’m unlocked she would just have to trust me.. Otherwise she can just ask (or tell!) me to lock back up, take the keys, and she will definitely know for sure!
Given the fact that Angel didn’t immediately lock me back up after that conversation, I suppose that means she trusts me!